Colors That You Shine - Haze

[Mayhem]

Parlae had remained away from the most of the pack these last couple weeks. She wasnt ready to let her packmates know that she would indeed be bringing the first pups into the pack. The one eyed minx was also very aware of how her condition could affect her favor with in the pack. For Nara could just as easily exile her as support her. The last thing Parlae wanted was to be shunned by her new family, the wolves she had come to respect and love. The other half of her wrestled with what she would say if she were to be exiled and Nara demanded to know the father of her whelps. As much as the smarter part of her told her to take Haze down with her, she just couldnt make her heart feel the same. If posed with such a question, she would blame her own carelessness for going outside their borders, and having this burden forced upon her. Yes it was a lie, and lies she did not like telling, but it would spare Haze of a harsh life. It was her fault anyways. If she had not paraded around him, and tempted him this might never have happened. But as it stood now, she was indeed going to have this litter. The only questions remaining were whether or not Haze would stand with her through this experience, and what Nara would do to her.

In her old pack, starting a family without permission was considered a huge crime, one that got many a pair booted. All Parlae could hope for was Nara's leniency in the matter. With a sigh she stopped her frantic digging. The one eyed minx had found an old fox den a couple nights back, and since then had been attempting to expand it. The small den had been abandoned for many moons and would be the perfect place to have her pups. It was only a few feet from the water, and a mile or so from where the rest of the pack slept. The dark covered femme would be safe here, undisturbed. With a couple pants she rocked back onto his haunches, taking a rest from her construction project. Even if she was barley showing, the strain of it all was still there. She got tired faster, she slept more, and well to her shock she was consuming more. Even after her little fit a couple weeks ago, she had taken that doe back here and ate it. She had no idea what had come over her that day. She had been mean, almost cruel, and for what? Parlae was extremely troubled by it. Perhaps it simply stemmed from the fact that she didnt want Haze to see the care she had for him, she feared his rejection most.

[Asake~]

~ Oh how the white brute has changed. Call it age, the seeping growing that rocks into a victim's bones. That needing for something greater than yourself to occur, the needing for some kind of companionship and love. Years ago, Haze would have said that these things were the least of what he could ever want. That all it did was hinder him and keep him rooted in one place. That was until he saw his dearest Ryder being killed by her own brother. He did not show grief for the insane femme's death, yet the situation still scarred him. She had his heart, then she was killed. It was an awakening moment really. Haze did not want to take what that was for granted.

Now, when he found his way to these new lands. Full of interesting wolves and stunning powers. Haze instantly came into the Souse, finding himself a place where he could secretly brood and plot the defense for this area. He was done being an alpha, the position only made life harder, took everyone you cared about away from you. Power was overrated, all he needed now was a cause... a drive.

Parlae was starting to become that. The femme was beautiful if you could look past her missing assets. Such as her tail and her eye, underneath she was cunning, caring, and strong. Trait that Haze would say he was drawn too.

Yet, lately... she was not being either of those.

Ever since their so called 'mistake' Parlae has been relatively cold towards him. Snarling at his every advance and presence. She was wearing at Haze's patience, making him think of his foolish attempts to make amends in a way he would like this to end. When he was younger, Haze was a snake... a planning and plotting problem creator. Causing wars and mayhem in every pack he joined. It was fun, so much fun... Yet, now he just could not bear it in himself to do such a thing.

Sure, if some young buck tries to destroy him. It would be easy to resurface the old cunning. The white brute's muzzle peeling back into a amused smile as he thought. Eyes gleaming with amusement as they darted about their surroundings. A hare was hanging limply from his jaws, the lips peeled back in the wry smile Haze was becoming known for. It was a gift for Parlae, wither she wish to or not. She was the mother of his pups. Haze was not disloyal, he would be a bane if he was. Haze has been watching Parlae wither she wish it or not, adjusting his patrol so that her scent was always within grasp. She was always alone, he was just making sure she did nothing to hurt herself, or others her.

Call it protectiveness, a need to at least make himself useful to someone. Parlae was the first to ever talk to him when he joined. A amused chuckle that emerged muffled from his maw. He was over thinking, now gliding through the trees, close to the river. Haze latched onto the femme's scent. Only making a quick trot till he found her digging into a old fox den.

Coming into view, Haze dropped the Hare.His face taking a stoic nature... all except his eyes, which seemingly always looked amused. Laughing at himself more than any other. Now he eyed Parlae, a small smirk growing on his muzzle. The expression was not unfeeling, just not as warm as many would wish. " Again, for you indeed..." Haze spoke, standing a moment before attempting to leave.

She has not given him a lick of her presence for the last few sun rises... He did not expect it now. She was a constant puzzle, one he was still trying to figure out.

[Mayhem]

Parlae took back to her digging after her little rest. For some reason she felt the need to get this finished today. The dark minx wanted the comfort of having a sanctuary to bring her whelps in this world. Now she had managed to get farther and farther into the den so that only her bannerless rump could be seen. Her daggers raked the earth as she frantically expanded the dens most inner area. Dirt was coming flying out in all directions as she feverlously dug. The rumble of her belly was audible, as she attempted to ignore its constant pleading for food. She had never eaten so often her in short life, and it was becoming cumberson to eat all the time. But she knew she had to, the small lives were demanding it, and well she couldnt deny them. So with a low growl she pulled herself from the den and fell back on her haunches, almost tumbling over. She then got to her feet, and shook the dust from her dark pelt. As she did so she heard a voice, and she turned quickly, her eye locking on Haze. An obvious wave of relaxation passed and with a sigh her shoulders slunk releasing all tension. As he spoke, a small smile crept over her face. "Thank you." she said that kindness she had reemerging. She had been grumpy there last encounter but that was to be expected she had been in shock from what she had let happen.

When he turned to attempt to walk off she chased after him. The heavier dark minx didnt want him to go, no she wanted him to stay. "Haze wait..." she said reaching a front paw out in an attempt to touch his fleeting back piston. Parlae needed her friend, and well she would be lying if she said he wasnt more than that to her. She longed for his scent and companionship, and well this was completely strange to her. The dark minx had been content for years flyng solo, but now.. no she wanted this white brute, and she planned on making him hers. "I'm sorry." she said softly. Making her way along his side until she managed to stand infront of him, her one eye asking for forgiveness. She somewhat lowered herself slightly, this was the first time she had ever shown any form of submission to Haze. "I dont know what came over me, please dont leave me." she said with a pleading look.

[Asake~]

~ Haze was honestly surprised to hear the kind tone that echoed the femme's words. He half expected her to stop him and lecture him on how she was fully capable at hunting and feeding herself. That was truth, yet it was foolish to not accept help. Haze was that foolish before, now he had scars. Where otherwise he would have been untouched. Yet now, he felt something touch his back leg, her vocals ringing about his ears in a sad note. He froze, not willing to look behind him at the femme who was now trying to gain his attention again.

He would not be honest if he did not say that the slight contact between their bodies as she passed his side. It would be a lie if he said he did not like it, did not get a rush of enjoyment at the touch. Yet, he did not let this leak into his expression, oddly enough he matched her gaze when she made around to face him. Haze nearly faltered at what he saw in that one eye. Parlae was apologizing to him and begging his forgiveness. This never really happened before, normally those he wronged in some way never came back to him for this. Yet, now... Parlae was before him. Her eye bursting with an emotion he knew too well. Bah, Memories.

The subtle submission she gave to him only boiled over his core. Made him spiteful for showing that little shred of weakness. Yet, Haze knew her reasons and worked to not direct that anger at her. Instead, he let a warm smile escape him. Odd, for the white brute. Since honestly... he never had much to truly smile about. Yet, here... He could guess he did.

With the femme slightly squashed down as she was, Haze was able to slowly nuzzle her cheek, before licking the base of her ear. Saying without words that he would not leave. His plan was constantly turning in his mind, seeing every little choice he had. This choice was not the most that would benefit him... yet, dammit he wanted to take it. " I will not, Indeed. I am only... say, concerned for the frigid treatment that has been going my way. " He spoke quietly, a tired tone in his vocie. He was becoming quite concerned and worried for the femme despite himself. Might be jsut his age catching up with him. Or he was just finding that drive he was working for.

Regardless, Haz e waited for a response. He noticed the digging Parlae was doing. He could guess that it was getting close to time for her. He would be going against himself to leave now. The unwanted urge to protect was always his, and it was becoming overwhelming now.

[Mayhem]

When the ghostly brute nuzzled her, she pressed her face against his, wanting the touch more than anything. Even if she had been a bitch towards him, she was only fighting the feeling of longing she had for him. He was quickly becoming a bigger part of her life, and she needed him. The dark minx desired his attention and companionship, and after pushing him away, denying his attempts to help, she hated herself. Whether or not they had bonded through something both of them knew wasnt the best idea didnt matter anymore. Haze had taken a part of Parlae's heart whether he liked it or not, and she had no intention on leaving his side. She loved the feeling of his tongue as it moved across her auds, causing a relaxed smile to form. She slowly brought herself back to her normal stature, her gesture obviously received well.. though another admittance of weakness soon followed... "im scared Haze." she whispered. As time passed and she could feel the constant rumbling of her stomach, the movement of her whelps, and the agonizing stress of hiding it all was wearing on her. Parlae had never been a mother before, and seeing as her own mother had failed her.. well she felt as if she didnt have the skills to take care of what her and Haze had made.

When he spoked she smiled, though it changed to a frown at the last part. She knew the way she had treated him was disrespectful, but more than that she had a feeling it had hurt him on a different level. The one eyed femme knew she had some explaining to do. "I was just so frustrated with myself, and well I took it out on you because... I knew you wouldnt turn your back on me." she said not sure if it was the best thing to say, but it was the truth. Parlae trusted Haze like no one else, and felt strongly that no matter what she did or said he would eventually forgive her for it. They could bring both the best and the worst out of each other. Perhaps that was what Raelen had meant when he muttered they were perfect for each other. Both had the ability to protect those they loved, both had the ability to trust almost unconditionally, and well they both had the ability to be rather frigid when they desired. Parlae snapped from her thoughts when her stomach rumbled once more as the little hellions demanded their food. It was a never ending cycle of eat, drink, dig, hardly sleep, exhaustion, eat, drink... over and over. It was beginning to make her crack, but the strength inside her helped her keep it hidden.

"What are we going to do?" she asked in a concerned manner as she walked back over towards the dens opening. Almost unwillinglly and as if something was forcing her too, the exhausted femme started digging once more. It seemed she could not stop these compulsions mother nature was thrusting upon her. She had to finish this den, then she could eat, and then she could sleep.. got to get it done, got to get it done played over and over in her mind. "got to get it done.." she muttered to herself as her tired, sore paws continued to rip the landscape apart.

[Asake~]

~ Haze did not have much to say at Parlae's worries. It was not that he was bitter nor was he mad, no I was just worried. That and he was trying to piece together a plan that would allow the best benefit for him... and Parlae. It was odd and slightly comforting to know that right now he had to plan for another. For if Parlae gets exiled over what happened between them. It would backlash on him. That, and he did not want to see the femme get burdened with more than she needed.

So he kept his silence a moment. Pondering her question,... what would they have to do? He could not accept her apology either, not now at least. For even if he did voice that he could understand. She was mad in her quest to finish her den. She would not hear even if he did voice it right in her ear. In so, he kept a respectable silence as he saw her going back to her digging. Knowing that his help in that matter would not be acceptable nor workable for her. She had to be content for her own work. Yet, Haze could possibly ease her nerves.

" Nara is a lone alpha. We all, have ourselves in a slight panic... Indeed. Souse is a prime target. Even if it would be, problematic. Even if this would not be the, best of reasons. That alone will ensure our safety in this pack. Parlae. " He took a moment, watching the femme work her way deeper into the den. " If anything does go wrong indeed... I will do as I can, to keep you here. " A sly smirk overcame her muzzle, a somewhat silent promise that no matter how Nara responds. Parlae will remain in the pack, Haze was not a manipulative for three or so years to be upstaged by a lone alpha. Even if she had his respect. He knew when to twist the rules.

" Things will be good Indeed. I am not worrying... " His pause was abrupt. " My only worry actually... Indeed. Is you, and what your views on me are... " Call it a habit, yet Haze knew how she was acting now. Willing to take advantage of her willing to regain his attention. He was willing to use this to hopefully know how her feelings really were. Sure Haze and Parlae have known each other for a long time. Yet, he never truly know...

[Mayhem]

Parlae listened to Haze's words and they oddly relieved her. He was right, they were in enough danger as it was, and kicking her and Haze out would just lesson the packs strength. Parlae and Haze were both warriors and much needed in the pack. Though what followed she had not expected. Was Haze actually expressing his care for her. Would he really guarantee her saftey in the pack, would he truly stand up to Nara on her behalf? This comforted her immensely, and she stopped her digging. Her eye looked around the den before disappearing into it. She was now happy that it was dug out and gave her plenty of room for herself, and her whelps. Moments later she reemerged from the den her pelt now covered in a thin layer of dust. She offered Haze a warm smile before walking over to the rabbit he had brought. She wasnt about to turn down and easy meal when her stomach was demanding it. Parlae gently picked the rabbit up, oddly expecting Haze to growl at her and demand it back. This had happened so much in her life she couldnt help but be conditioned to think it might happen every time. Once she heard nothing she relaxed and layed down next to Haze's feet. Her fur gently tickling his pistons when the wind blew.

With one last glance she lowered her mouth to the rabbits soft fur, and began to pull it apart. She made quick work of the small rabbit, consuming it as if she was a starved dog. The dark minx could not help herself, these days she always felt hungry. "I'm sure Nara would not excile me... I may just loose her respect though." she said taking a break from her meal and looking up at the confident brute that had stolen her loyalty and heart. She never understood how easily he had managed to enchant her, but he had. He was everything she needed, he was her confident warrior, and the quick witted brute that often kept her on her toes. When she heard his confident voice once again, she smiled. It made her happy to know that atleast one of them was prepared to deal with what they had done.

He had been shocking her, but what he said lastly puzzled her. His only worry was how she viewed him? She found this odd, and well she pondered it for a second. Parlae knew what she wanted, but had been afraid to say it for she feared he did not feel the same way. With a smile she looked at him. "Do you even have to ask?" she said being the quizzically minx he had come to know. "I care deeply for you Haze, I miss you when you are gone, and I long for your company." she said hoping her words would put him at ease. But if they hadnt she added.. "I view you more than just my friend, and I hope you view me the same." she said. She didnt want to say that she wanted him as her mate, for if he did not feel the same she would humiliate herself with such words.

[Asake~]

~ The white brute was oddly warmed by her words. A sly smirk growing as he listened to her little confession about how she view him. " If it was Mate that you are itching to say... Indeed Indeed. My heart would feel the same. " His vocie echoed, a slight reverberation for the confession on his part. He had to make sure he said it with meaning, which he fully did. Yet, Not even dear Ryder so long ago heard those words from him. It was always implied, always a silent acceptance on where his loyalty was held.

Now, his gaze... normally full of amusement and laughter. Was actually warm and kindly as he looked upon Parlae. His disgusting flick of weakness as Haze scuffled closer to the femme. Which was not very far as within moments their flanks barely touched, a hidden sensation in the near touching. A teasing. Yet, he cooled that by nuzzling Parlae's neck, working up to her cheek. " Worries are not needed now. This will work out one way or another. " His words edged out on a threatening tone. Not towards anyone present. Yet, to any wolf or disaster that would suddenly break either of them.

Now, Haze's amber gaze wandered to the now devoured Hare that he had caught. A grin forming to know that if Parlae was able to strip it as fast as she did, then they all were healthy. Haze was never a father, yet he has been a father to pups that were not his. Seen many femmes who were bearing litters. It was new to him, No what was new to him was the unexpected feeling of pride to know that these would actually be his. Haze was a ass and jerk when he wished to be. Which was nearly every day and night. Yet, as do most brutes... he had a hidden heart for those select few.

The one now to be those selected, was Parlae.

" Now, Ill be here where I can be reached Indeed. No worries Dear Parlae, I am not one to... run from responsibility. " He let out a audible snicker at the comment. Knowing a select few of brutes in his life that were afraid of packs. Afraid to accept what was needed and deal with what happens.

" Now, This was not a Mistake no? " He voiced lastly, Gazing at Parlae with a sly sarcastic grin. Trying to set off the statement as a joke from her previous nature. Calling it all a mistake, even to his face when he tried approaching.

She now could guess how persistent he was.

[Mayhem]

Parlae grinned at his words, which quickly turned to a smile. She wagged her little stump in happiness as his words. What could she say, she had never had a mate before. Never felt so confident, so safe.. she would do anything to keep this. "Yes Haze that is what I want." she said grinning at him. Her one yellow orb flooding with happiness. The one thing she noticed the most was the honesty in his eyes. He truly meant what he was saying, and that made her trust him all the more. As he crept up and nuzzled her she purred softly, rubbing her dark crania against his when it touched her cheek. She had longed for simple attention, and what he was giving her now, melted her heart, and her guard. The strong warrior she had trained with had now managed to steal her heart, and she hoped he would keep it safe forever. "I know." she said softly as she licked his cheek lovingly. This brute had no idea what kind of loyalty he had just bought by taking this minx's heart. She would fight for her pack, for him, and for her unborn children.

The tone he had used when he spoke those words to her made her realize how much he really cared for his new little family. A family that Parlae never really imagined having. The two of them were bonded for life, and the whelps that were currently growing in her belly were no mistake. No these little ones would be a gift, a gift to all the pack. "Do you think we should tell Nara?" the one eyed minx asked curious to see how her new mate felt about it. She didnt know if it would be wise to let their Alpha know before they hit the floor, or whether it was best to let her find out on her own.

When he spoke once more she nodded. "I know you are not a runner, and it makes me feel all the more safe when your scent is close. I often slept in certain areas you patrolled just to be close to you." she said smiling at him. She know longer feared him seeing her weaknesses. He was her mate now, and well she wanted him to know everything about her. When he playfully pointed out that their breeding was not a mistake she smiled. But she did not speak.. no. She got to her feet, and attempted to pin him on his back in a playful manner and nip at his lip. "Of course not." she said with a smile

[Asake~]

~ Oh the femme was trying her luck. Oh so very much as she flipped him and pinned him down. A form of submission Haze has never done. Would never do unless the situation demanded him to do so. It was when Parlae nipped at his muzzle that caused him too soften to the idea, he was not fighting her for position. Not challenging her for anything. No, they voiced their status to each other, Love. So to speak. Haze could say he rather liked the attention, the playfulness that Parlae was exhibiting. He never found a femme who would act like this. Refreshing, that was what it was. It was turning into some sort fo drug to ease the noticeable stress that was a burden to Haze's life. Parlae was like the release that helped him relax if only for a moment.

" So very lucky you are... compromised, Indeed. " He teased, the words working out slow and lovingly. It was new for Haze to say it in such a way, yet he was enjoying doing such. For it was always good planning to have allies. Parlae though, was proving to be a mate he could rely on, confide too, and enjoy time with.

Haze then retaliated for the nip by burrowing his muzzle into her chest, slowly building up upwards towards her throat. Growing accustomed to the purr that the femme would radiate when ever he did such. As said before, Haze had the bad reaction of always giving back what he was given. Yet, this time it did not seem so bad. Even if Haze was letting Parlae get the best of him for the sake that she had pups growing within. Otherwise he would have instantly reversed this.

" I will reveal this all into Nara's presence... soon Indeed. Best for when they are already walking it is. She will have no choice, Indeed. " He assured, looking up at the femme's face. Analyzing her reaction as well as locking onto the one eye she held. A sly smile building on his muzzle as he slightly nudged at her chin. He would gain the upper hand soon, even if the feel of her chest upon his was comforting. The closeness and contact was intoxicating, something he remembered from long ago... Now glad to have again.

Nara would see the light to this. His plan was already built and flawless...